February 17th and 18th 2016

Sorry I wasn't able to post yesterday, I'll put it in now before today.

February 17th:
Started off with work once again, 11-5 though not all day thank god. It was pretty quiet considering what the previous 2 days have been like. Went home and had chicken Korma for dinner and some cream eggs. Watched Grey's Anatomy and relaxed. That was pretty much my day.

February 18th:
Today is less eventful than yesterday because I am working all day long. Yay. Just hear the sarcasm in that.

It happeneed to be hell. Lunch was hell, I had to call for reinforcements although I ruined his evening plans he did say yes to coming in saying it meant more money. Fair enough. The evening was hell as well but luckily because we had the reinforcement it wasn't as bad as if it was just the 2 of us.

February 16th 2016

Today I had work between 11 and 5. It's now the school holidays here so I was expecting it to be busy. Maybe not that busy though. It was hell and I am so grateful for my boss coming in to help because of he hadn't, it would've just been me and a trainee. Now that wouldn't of been fun. Other than it being busy customer wise, we had a laugh. I like working with the people I did today because even with the stresses of work we can always get on and make the most out of it.

After work I went home via a pit stop for tampons (sorry for the info but I did that today so thought I should share) and sweet treats for myself, and just had a margherita pizza for dinner and chocolate cheesecake for dessert.

I spent the evening watching greys anatomy alongside some colouring whilst I ate my sweet treats.

February 13th 2016

My day started with another trip to work. 11 til 5 today but it's with the worst person who I work with so I knew before I went that it'll be a drag.

The time itself didn't go too slowly, it was just the crap that comes out of his mouth. That person has to know everything and definitely wants everyone else to know about the useless crap he knows as well. Luckily though, he didn't put any music on.

After work I went home and had chicken pie for dinner and then made pancakes. Yes I know it's not pancake day anymore but Dad didn't have any on Tuesday so as an excuse for me to have some more, I made him some.

Other than that I didn't really do a whole lot else. Watched Law and Order, Grey's Anatomy that I needed to catch up on, played some mahjong and relaxed.

February 12th 2016

Travelling home today from my mini vacay. 2 trains, a boat, another train and a walk up a hill with my suitcase. It took about 3 hours in total to get home, everything worked to the correct time. It was a simple journey.

I got home and first thing I did was have a shower. Not because I smelt but because there is something about being in your own home, showering in your own shower and eating your own food. After my shower I felt so much better. So comfy in my woolly pyjamas. But I dare not to get too cosy because in 2 hours I had work. If I got too comfy I would fall asleep and then never want to go to work. Instead I started watching The Good Dinosaur. I had heard it was good and it looked cute so thought I'd check it out.

Work was boring, not very busy but surprisingly the time went pretty quickly. I had work from 5 until close. I managed to get out by 9.30. 

I got home, put on my pyjamas again which I secretly had placed on one of our radiators so I just new it would be toasty and warm for me. Got in bed and relaxed with a not so relaxing episode of Grey's Anatomy which has just come back off it's midseason break.

January 14th 2016

Before I knew it, today was going to be the worst day of my life so far.

As soon as I woke up I was constantly shuddering. I got up shuddering. Had a shower shuddering and left the house all while still shuddering. I knew kind of the reason but still not 100% why.

I left home and headed to my Grampy's house for 11 o'clock. Just to let you know, I was still shuddering.

Half 11 was the time it would all start. We were all sat squashed into 1 small room in our smart attire just waiting, not sure what to do. Half eleven came and we were all now standing outside the front gate watching down the road. Watching him come along slowly.

When he arrived, I couldn't look. It was too much. I got into the car and watched the funeral conductor walk my Grampy up the road past his home where he had lived for nearly 60 years.

We followed behind the hearse to the cremetorium. I was trying not to look because I knew I would start to cry so I chose quick glances. He lay there, still, with the Merchant Navy flag draped over him and our flower wreaths placed on top.

At the crematorium we were treated by the celebrant that was to do the service and gently asked me if I was still willing to read a small passage which I had agreed to a week or so ago. I nodded yes as when he asked, that was the moment I began to cry and could not stop. I went and sat down as I couldn't bear to follow him anymore. People I didn't think would come were there. The place was full.

Other than the celebrant. I was the only one to read anything. It was the hardest thing I have ever done but would do it again. I would do anything for my Grampy. I managed most of the passage without too much hassle but by the end I was crying.

Amazing Grace was one of the chosen songs for the service. I knew that before the service began. The thing I didn't know was the version played was played by bagpipes. I wept a little more. My Nanny was Scottish. Grampy's wife. She passed nearly 8 years ago. An emotional tribute to both of them.

After the service we had a wake. Food and drink and old photos. It was from then I stopped shuddering but I think that was from the alcohol I drank.

I went home later that day, ate pizza and went to sleep. I was glad it was over but also glad I could say one last goodbye to the world's most amazing man. In my eyes anyway.